Neil is over today and for the past few hours we've had the show Life playing (on the Discovery channel). And I keep crying. This is the kind of stuff I just can't watch. Come on, I can't even watch cartoon animals without crying! It's a very silly trait of mine. I've been like this for a long time. Crazy? Sure.

Neil just informed me that a whale's penis is called a "dork." What? But did you know that Sengi's are freaking adorable?

Their long noses are all wiggly and stuff. It's so cute! But seriously, this shit just upsets me too much. I cried when the mother octopus went into her sea hideaway as her creepy baby eggs were developing and died immediately as they hatched. Sniffle, sniffle.


Now the fish episode is on and I can safely ignore that. I don't like fish and other sea creatures like that.

Love,
Your Friendly Sarcastic Fringehead (see photo below)

Mr. Kashi 2008-2010

My last hamster, Kashi, died earlier today (ok, possibly yesterday). He died while sleeping in his orange house, so of course it was freaking adorable. It just looks like he is asleep.

I've been getting hamsters since I was 8. My first hamster was named Rosie and when she died, I was devastated. I watched her dying. I knew something was wrong and I felt so helpless holding this little creature in my hands that was clearly not going to last much longer. I remember watching her take her last few gasps of air. Big yawns. And then it was over. I cried and cried, and I remember my dad taking me for a walk around the block while I held Rosie in a box, because I didn't want to leave her (have her buried). I don't know what my dad and I talked about during that long walk around the block, but I never forgot the walk itself. I know I was comforted.

30+ hamsters later and Kashi is now gone and I'm still crying. The tears don't last too long anymore but there are always a lot of emotions when they leave. Where do they go? I know they were just little hamsters but they have all been so different and I still want to believe there's a little hamster heaven. It's weird -- I don't know if I believe in one for people but I so want to believe there's one for animals. And I hope Mr. Kashi is there.

Google

I love how I can just throw in a few words in a search box and immediately find a site that has the lyrics to a song I loved as a little girl. It's from the movie Alice in Wonderland that was done around 1985. It was like one of those "All Star Cast" type things and I loved it to death. I wanted to be Alice so bad with her long blond hair. I wanted to eat and drink things that could make me bigger or smaller. And I just wanted to be a cute little girl too.

To the Looking-Glass world it was Alice that said,
“I’ve a scepter in hand, I’ve a crown on my head.
Let the Looking-Glass creatures, whatever they be
Come and dine with the Red Queen, the White Queen, and me!”

Then fill up the glasses as quick as you can,
And sprinkle the table with buttons and bran:
Put cats in the coffee, and mice in the tea—
And welcome Queen Alice with thirty-times-three!

“O Looking-Glass creatures,” quoth Alice, “draw near!
’Tis an honour to see me, a favour to hear:
’Tis a privilege high to have dinner and tea
Along with the Red Queen, the White Queen, and me!”

Then fill up the glasses with treacle and ink.
Or anything else that is pleasant to drink:
Mix sand with the cider and wool with the wine—
And welcome Queen Alice with ninety-times-nine!

How to lose a friend ... or not

Blogging is a cool thing and I love it, but you have to be careful, and that's the reason I've created a brand new blog and kept my original one shut down. Losing a friend that happens to read your blog is one certainly lame reason to lose a friend! So, I will be MUCH more careful on this blog. However, I will also say that I want this blog to be public (I think?) and if I feel like writing something, I have the right to do that. You can not like it. Hopefully you won't end a friendship with me over what you read.

So I was thinking about my situation with my ex-friend and I am actually guilty of doing the same thing. Of course there's more to our story, but I can't write about it. But I remembered that there have been times when I have gotten so irritated with friends' blogs that I have hit a limit and just couldn't be friends with them for a while. One was a friend I knew from work several years ago and she posted about things that I just did not want to know about -- like her sex life. And material possessions. Things that made me think, "ewww, I don't know if I want to be friends with a person like this." I realized later on (months down the road), that it was totally jerky of me to judge her based on anything she wrote because that was where she expressed herself. And hey, I didn't have to read it! Seemed pretty silly that I got all upset in the first place when I realized all that. More recently I got upset with a friend because of the way she was talking on her blog and rather than get upset with her and stir things up, I should have just stopped reading and our friendship wouldn't have gotten all screwed up.

So I think with blogging, we just have to remember that everyone has a right to write whatever they wish. And if you find yourself getting upset with a friend's blog, perhaps the best thing to do is just to stop reading it. It could save your friendship.