FML?

She's back again! I need to cover an important topic: the term "FML." I don't like it. One reason: it's selfish. Second: it's one of the whiniest things you can say. As if your problem is so bad. Come on. I might lose my job soon, but do you hear/see me saying "FML?" No, and you won't. Because no matter what, there's someone else that has it harder, worse, or shittier.

Think about it.

My bionic eyes

O.D.: +0.50 - 1.00 x 094
O.S.: +0.25 - 1.00 x 083

Rawr!

My brain itches

I wish I could just relax. I wish my brain would just STOP. Anxiety blows. No sir, I don't like it. And that's all that is going on in my head right now. Anxious thoughts take over my entire brain and I cannot think. I think I'll go eat some more pills.

You can sprain your ass?

I don't know about you, but I can.

No, seriously. I sprained my ass by falling on my stairs.

Funny, but OW.

Oh, and having an ultrasound treatment on your ass is not as fun as it would sound.

Yuck

I hate sweating.

July 22, 2008 - the hardest day

I miss you so much Sneakers.

Days off

I took the past two days off and that's been nice although I've been too lazy. Maybe I was supposed to be though. I actually want to go to work tomorrow so that should say something, right?

I got a speeding ticket today going 82 on a highway (speed limit 65). (And actually at one point I was going 90 so really...I deserved it.) It didn't make me nervous or mad or anything. It was kind of weird. For some reason I think it was fate. When I got to my destination (a store), this song I love from Ferris Bueller's Day Off was playing that I didn't have. I didn't know who it was by or what it was called. (Thanks to Google I later found out.) It's a song by The Dream Academy called Edge of Forever. Google it, and you can probably listen to a full version. And I found apple pattern pj pants, which was the BEST!

Tomorrow is a tough anniversary. Two years ago tomorrow, I had to put my beloved cat Sneakers to sleep. I was a wreck for the first year after that. Seriously, a wreck. Crying almost every day for months and months. It was horrible. I'm starting to tear up just writing this...

"There's a million hearts that break too soon every time you go away."

Apples

So, I'm obsessed with apples.

Not the computer.

Not the fruit (as far as food).

But the images. Or something. It's weird and I can't explain it. I don't know when it happened, where, how... but I loves me everything apples! I have bags with apples, pens, paper, stickers...yay!

Yeah, I know it's weird.

I get so excited! I scored some great stuff at Michaels this weekend.


For someone that's not really happy in general, it is ridiculously easy to make me happy sometimes. :)

Listen! It's time to get serious!

"I'll only put my brain in a robot body if it's a robot CAT!" - Hesh, Sealab 2021

Ahh, sometimes it's these small things that make me smile that count. It's Saturday and screw work. Screw the man! I'm cleaning up my house and petting my doggy and watching my cats watching a fly buzz around the house (ew). They fly so fast, how do they not smack into things? Clearly I need to get this fly drunk! I should open up a wine cooler and let it feast on that. I don't want to drink that crap.

I'm planning on taking a few days off of work this week just to kind of decompress, but I think I chose really random days, like maybe Tuesday and Wednesday and maybe Friday? I don't even know. I'll have to check. I just need a break and it's a good week to take one.

Well it's back to cleaning for me, ladies and germs! Kisses!

The master plan

I also object to having a group director and senior director that want to pick, pick, pick at weird things like vultures. My poor boss. Poor me. I need to figure out a new plan. Yes!

I object!

My birthday is in a month. A month from today. And I object!!!!! May this be the longest 31 days ever.

Never gamble with an asian

So it turns out that I got a nasty sickness. I mean, it wasn't that bad, but I was fairly miserable for a few days. Now it's just making its final exit I think.

I took Dakota to the vet last night (appointment -- a regular one -- at 9:30pm!) and they had to take urine. My poor baby doesn't like to be on her back and it was hard to put her through all of it (ultrasound so they can stick a needle in her bladder to get urine). Anyway, turns out her white cells are elevated which indicates an infection, but everything else is good. She got antibiotics and we were sent on our way and I am a proud mama and must say my doggy did not pee my bad last night! (We were running out of blankets!)

In other news, I think my work "situation" thinger is better. I was basically put on a plan in Q1, then it got extended because I went on medical leave March 17-May 24 but the period ended on July 2nd and I appear to have passed the test. I thought I'd be happy and relieved yesterday when my boss mentioned this but I got horribly anxious and depressed. It was no bueno.

Last thought: chiropractors can be really good.

Quickie

"Growly dog" is now halfway over and I've honestly seen no improvement in my dog. I think it might be hopeless.

Sigh.

I have the beginnings of a cold/illness which really means that my throat hurts and is all swollen. It's delish. So I left work early (after about 3 hours) and slept most of the day with my cats and that was nice. I'm glad tomorrow's Friday! I have plans this weekend and I'm looking forward to them. Hopefully I can get some cool pictures from Capitola & will maybe even post a few!